i'm bored! so i took this survey thingy from ichigo's blog to do it.

ANGER
do you have a quick temper? i have learnt to control my anger in a better manner, but i think i did used to have a quick temper.
what do you do when you're mad? i'm used to being alone when i'm pissed and angry now, it isnt a bad thing to be gazing at the stars alone, or listening to mp3s and crying your heart out. at least there is no one looking at you cry. of cos, it'd be better to have someone there for you.
what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? i left him there and walked away. i regret it now, and i'm sorry.
if you can take back time, would you have never done this? i wouldnt want to do it again ever.
ever made anyone cry when you were mad? it happened twice if i'm not wrong, but it wont happen again.
do you curse when you're mad? at times i do. wished tt person could just understand what i am going through.

CRYING
when was the last time you really cried your heart out? just last night.
ever cried yourself to sleep? yes, and i believe most of us been through this. just that i thought it would hv stopped, but it came back again.
ever cried on your friend's shoulder? yes. it's useful.
ever cried over the opposite sex? haha, sad to say, i cry over the opposite sex more often. and now, i do it quite often. haha.
do you cry when you get an injury? heart injury considered? lol.
do certain songs make you cry? yes, especially if the lyrics are meaningful, and it's a special song and the mood is there.

PAIN
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through? there are just too much to name.
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself? i drunk and smoke. and cried the whole night and the next morning, i couldnt open my eyes.
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else? i hurt him so deep that the feelings faded and he gave up.
ever had a painful break up? it was bad, really bad. but someone picked me up and i felt a whole lot better. to that someone, thanks!
how depressed can you get? i can get so depressed that i dont want to see anyone at all. except tt someone special. but it usually last only a day or so.
do you inflict pain on yourself? no. i'm afraid of pain. haha.

HAPPY
are you normally a happy person? i am trying to be.
what can make you happy? every little thing. especially if it involves him.
do you wish you were happier? yes. i yearn for the happy days we had.
what makes you the happiest? be have him loving me.
is being happy overrated? no, it beats being sad. and who doesnt want to be happy every single day?
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy? of cos, i adore them too!
can music make you happy? yes and no. it depends on my mood.

LOVE
how many times have you had your heart broken? i was broken alot of times, but i guess, at some point, the hurt just disappears when happiness comes into the picture.
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others? they have left footprints and memories which are hard to forget. there is still a special place in my heart where i hold all these.
did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply? no.
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry? yes. i can cry just missing someone too.
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you? yes. i love it.
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'? no.

HATE
who do you actually hate? no one.
have you ever been on a hit list? i dont know. but i think so. haha.
do you hate any one that breaks your heart? maybe at the point when things go wrong. but after that, there isnt a need to. it wont change things. just wish for them to be happier.
do you hate George Bush? haha, for what?

SELF ESTEEM
is your self-esteem extremely low? at times like this, yes.
do you believe in yourself? i want to. but sometimes, the facts are just infront of you.
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are? haha, just say thanks lah!
are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat? no. ok lah, maybe sometimes i will. haha.
ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough? no.
are you happy with who you are? yes. i love him to bits and i want to put a smile on his face.
do you wish you can be someone else? sad to say, yes.

FIRSTS
First best friend: haha cant rmber.
First car: neither can i.
First screen name: if i'm not wrong, it's hapiness.
First self purchased album: lols. cant rmber. think it was fann wong or smth.
First funeral: my great grandma.
First pets: a turtle!
First piercing/tattoo: when i was young, my mum brought me to peirce my ears.
First credit card: when i was 17.
First true love: when i was 16. i suppose so.
First enemy: haha, back in primary school.
First big trip: erms, probably the one to australia.
First music you remember hearing in your house: nah cant rmber.

LASTS
Last cigarette: last night. and i wont touch it again.
Last car ride: last monnday on baoyi's friend's car.
Last time you cried: haha, just last night.
Last crush: 16th October 2004
Last phone call: with mark this morning!
Last IM: brian.
Last time showered: last night. haha.
Last shoes worn: my working adidas shoes!Last item bought: cigg and drinks.
Last annoyance: with myself.
Last time wanting to die: i cant rmber.
Last time scolded: cant rmber too.

FAVOURITES
Colour[s]: green brown purple white gold
Food: haha alot lah!
Boys' Names: ptee.
Girls' Names: brianna. lols.
Subjects In School: radio.
Animals: gah, i am afraid of most animals.
Sports: swimming.
Perfume: my puma strawberry!

HAVE YOU EVER
Given anyone a bath? haha yeah.
Smoked? yes.
Bungee jumped? i am afraid of heights!
Made yourself throw up? no.
Skinny dipped? lol, no.
Ever been in love? yes.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? no.
Pictured your crush naked? haha no!
Actually seen your crush naked? bleahs. you know it
Cried when someone died? yes.
Lied? lotsa times. for good and bad reasons.
Fallen for your best friend? no.
Been rejected? yes.
Rejected someone? yes.
Used someone? it isnt used. it's just tt you know you can count on tt someone.
Done something you regret? yes. regret it tons.

CURRENT
Clothes: rs tee and shorts!
Music: till the end. =)
Make-up: nopes.
Smell: chocolate milk.
Favorite artists: ptee. haha. he sings well! he draws well!
Desktop picture: none.
Dvd in player: none. lol.
Color of toenails: i didnt put on any.
Last person You touched: erms, i cant rmber.
Hugged: definately him.
IMed: brian.
You kissed: definately him.

ARE YOU
Understanding: i wasnt, but now, i'm really trying hard to be one.
Open-minded: yes.
Arrogant: dont know, to some i may be, to some i'm not?
Insecure: at times.
Interesting: haha, i'm boring.
Hungry: yes, when i'm over the skies. haha.
Moody: sometimes lah.
Hardworking: if i want to.
Organized: haha. dots.
Healthy: not too bad i guess.
Shy: if i don't know you well.
Attractive: YES!
Bored easily: yes, i cant stand lonliness!
Responsible: i suppose so. at least i dont pang sei people.
Obsessed: with someone.
Angry: not at this moment.
Sad: not at this moment.
Disappointed: i dont know, really.
Happy: i think i will the moment his name appears.
Hyper: no.
Trusting: lols. depends.
Talkative: if i know you well and i want to talk to you.
Legal: haha, i'm past 18.

WHO DO YOU WANT TO
Kill: crazy. no one.
Slap: no one lah! i'm not mad!
Get high with: precious only.
Look like: lols. dont know.
Talk to offline: tt someone is online now. lol.
Talk to online: tt someone, but the status is set to busy.

WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or Pepsi: coke, you made me love it.
Flowers or candy: candy.
Tall or short: tall

RANDOM
In the morning I am: always lazing on bed.
All I need is: you and only you.
Love is: a blessing.
I dream about: you and a girl just last night.
What do you notice first: hair. lols.
Last person you danced with: it was ages since i stepped onto a dance floor.
Who makes you laugh the most: preicous and fy.
Who makes you smile: depends lah.
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: sometimes i dont know what the feeling is like when i see him, or if i'm even supposed to be there.
Who do you have a crush on: my last, precious.
Who has a crush on you: i dont know. i hope it's you.

DO YOU EVER
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: yes. it's stupid eh? lol.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: at times, so tt i can know what is going through their minds.
Wish you were younger: yeah, i seem so old now.

NUMBER OF TIMES
I have had my heart broken: too much.
Of hearts I have broken: i dont know.
Of continents I have lived in: ONE!
Of tight friends: less than 10
Of cds I own: very few.
Of scars on body: i dont go and count!

i'm done with it. i spent almost an hour on it. dots.
going to ps around 5 to do advertising. going to go get ready soon!

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i miss you precious.

brianna
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