some things that i thought, were afterall just extras that are meant to make myself feel worst. really, i have been a thinker and till now, i am still one. haha. i really look too deep into things and assume? dont really know, but i guess, at this time, it stays that way.

anyway, happy birthday candy xu min'er!
dont know if i can make it for the dinner later, but if i dont, you still got to enjoy your dinner! and i know, the wish you want to come through is for him and you to be better. jiayou! and i do hope you guys will make things out soon! enjoy your big day!

anyway, i went to work today and it was busy. cant imagine what happens when starhub opens right beside pasta. nevertheless, i enjoyed work! talked alot of craps with boon, dwayne, zul, kelvin. lols. practically everyone lah. work was so enjoyable with them. gladys was on mc, so there was no coffee after work. waited for zul and we took the train back together.

we didnt play hangman. he told me stories. stories that made me feel his life. that made me understand him even more. he told me abt his ex-girlfriend. and we always thought he didnt love her, but in fact, he loves her alot. having been togther for more than 3 years, they did have their fair share of ups and downs, but they moved out and stayed tgther, hoping to improve things. sighs, things didnt work out too. now after a month, she is with a rich ang moh.

he isnt satisfied. that she can carry on her life well. and there he is, yearning for her, and wanting her back so bad. sighs. he regrets. for whatever he has done. but isnt this always the case when couples break up? one will leave their life perfectly fine and the other one, miserable.
isnt this always the case? that people only treasure when they lose their loved ones? i suppose so, i'm one living example.

whatever it is, i do hope zul will get on well. he may look happy at all times, but he feels like shit inside. he told me he is so lost tt he wants to get rid of all memories. he told me the things they did tgther. sighs. he looked like he was abt to cry. he probably will never see this, but..

bang, get on well and dont quit pasta due to memories. i will miss you. serious. memories cannot be deleted even if you leave here, it will still stay in your heart. dont be so depressed anymore, be the zul that clubs like shit and drinks like hell! i want to see that zul i love! =) see you tmr at work.

and to my baby precious..
havent posted something for you, cos i didnt know you are still read my blog. until when you asked me if i played hangman with zul. dont know if you were disappointed cos you always wanted to read the msg to you, haha. glad that you're working now, save up the money eh! thanks for calling me when you said you'll the moment you reach ben's house. you were 99% tired, and you used that remaining 1% to talk to me, and even said you'd sleep in awhile more so that we cld talk longer. i love the you today, i really do. and hope you can be like this everyday. simple simple things that make me smile. thank you baby. i looked through the pictures that we had taken over these 10 months and i smiled. we were so happy and sweet, and cute! haha. we have come a long way, the thomas story, the fights and trust, so much more, but we are still standing at this very moment. i love you baby and i really do. thank you for all the memories you have created. i treasure every one of them. loads. i wanna MOS with you soon. MOS!

some pictures that we took during this 10 month journey, many of which were taken some time back. sweet sweet days!


in the cab on the way to work tgther! i still rmber it was a morning! and you stayed at my place that night!

our new family member! the piggy i wanted, which you bought with your first pay at summerspoon! cos we quarrelled and you bought it for me! haha.

you sending me back to yishun on 39.

ghhhm. our favourite trademark. haha.

MOS with jun and gladys! after summerspoon when we saw thomas, rmber? lols.

hugging froggy to sleep!

after SIMON! lols.

rawww!

our first anniversary. =)

kiss for me.

exactly the same one you planted on 16th October. *smiles*

it was freezing cold in your room!

pink tee i bought for you!

we were going town at 7 plus from your place, rmber?

and you took money from your dad, and in the end you got nth,

and you showed him a berms from your cupboard! haha.