I was young
but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry

A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it that

I loved you more than you'll ever know
and part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like it was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

And part of me died when I let you go
after all this
why would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
and part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
and part of me died when I let you go

it just describes what i'm feeling exactly.
part of me died when i decided to let you go.

you will never know the pain i had to endure,
you will never know the heartache you caused,
you will never know the lonliness i felt,
and the sleepness nights i had everyday,

you will never know how much i missed you,
you will never know how much i loved you.
you will never know how much i wanted to hold you back,
you will never know how much i wanted you.
you will never know how much i wanted the story to continue.

neither will you know how hard i tried to be happy,
how hard i tried to let you go,
how hard i tried to put these behind.
you dont know how much that one chance meant to me.

i will never know why you wanted to give it up,
i will never know why you wanted to leave,
i will never know why you chose to hurt me,
i will never know why you broke all promises,
i will never know why you changed suddenly.

after all those hurdles we jumped,
i never thought we'd be what we are now.
i never thought you would choose to let go.
i never thought we would be so weak.
i never thought the story would have ended.

werent you telling me to be strong to jump more hurdles?
werent you telling me no matter what, you'd never give up?
werent you telling me no matter what, you'd be there for me?
werent you telling me the story will continue?
werent you telling me you'll never let me go?
werent you telling me you only want to walk down the aisle with me?
werent you telling me you believe only you can give me the best that none others can do so?

i never thought all these would backfire.
if you were just like others, being a passerby,
i wished you stayed longer.
much longer.

it has been weeks,
and this is the first time i held on for weeks without allowing people to step in.
it's hard but i'm holding on,
looking forward to that very day.
the day that will make me a brand new person.

- didnt catch the last glimpse of your smile -
why wouldnt you want to try again?

brianna
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