i'm still waiting i realised.

aint in a duper high mood now. feeling sicky. my throat's worst, coughed until my heart pained, coughed until i lost my voice. eye's watery and sticky, eyedrops doesnt help.

even when monkey msned me with a duper enthu hello, i couldnt fake a smile. i cant understand why i am feeling like this right after work.

partly cos i quarrelled with brendon last night and today at work, we didnt utter a word. he didnt even go to the rooftop to look for me and roy which is very unusual. he didnt even nod his head when i told him to fire the dish.

but even so, this cant affect my mood that much. sighs.
it's that reason again. stupid reason.

school's starting and i'm still working from monday to sunday. everyday after school, every public holiday. i dont feel like resting. want to work my ass off, spend whatever free time working since i have got nothing to do. i wouldnt stop working unless it has got smth to do with you. otherwise i wouldnt want to cancel my schedule.

and this reminds me of movies.
i havent watched my april snow. sighs.
anyway next week the cinemas will be making big bucks.
it's either PH, or eve of PH or weekends.

you dont know even know anything.
and i wish you dont.
dont ever come here.
i just want you to be happy.
i know you are.
cos no matter what happens, you can take it so lightly as if it didnt affect you one bit. you will still give that silly smile when you see people. and your life remains the way it is.

brianna
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