i went through one of the worst nightmares in 2006. i had a painful experience at the dentist. the dentist said it was very very bad infection and swelling and he had to give me an injection to subside it. i just freaked out and became very terrified.
omg. i was in the room for 45 mins, and in that 45 mins, i was just clutching my fists. it was really painful, especially when he used whatever-you-call equipment to squeeze the pulse out. so pain till there were tears in my eyes.
and after that, i just couldnt open my mouth. couldnt drink or eat anything. even when i coughed, it was damn pain. but it got better towards the evening. and i was laughing madly with my advert mates until i realised i could open my mouth without feeling pain. haha.
stayed in school till 6 plus, met my mum and sister at northpoint to get some stuffs. have been a long time since i interacted so much with them. sometimes i dont even see my sister for afew days. by the time i'm home, she's alrdy sound asleep.
saw what madeline wrote in her blog. she used to have dinner everyday with her parents but now, it's like so hard to even meet once in a week. quite true and it dawned onto me i havent had dinner with them for a long long time. the only time tt's soon would prolly be the reunion dinner.
anyway, bought a spag from u2 and a skirt from op! a skirt i wanted to get long long ago! and heh! i got xs! haha. i thought i cant fit in alrdy la, cos i put on weight! haha. and i finally can wear u2 spag tops! used to be loose la, but now it's damn tight and it shows my xiao du du! haha.
vincent called me while i was in school. was just telling brendon some of my feelings. feeling down and low now in fact. am glad that he accompanied me and listened to my thoughts. listening to yang chen ling's song,
li xiang qing ren. and it describes exactly how i am feeling now.
zhen de hen xiang zhi dao ni de yi bai fen hui gei zhen yang de ren.
wo jiu shi hen xi huan ni, xi huan dao wo hen xiang da shen de shuo chu lai.
ying wei ni de xi huan que wo hen gao xing, bu yong guan bie ren hui kan dao shen mo, ye bu yao ting bie ren shuo shen mo, zhi yao que ding ji zi de fang xiang.
i really miss you.i should be contented that at least i'm the first few who is informed of what's happening to your life, that we still joke as we used to. but why am i being greedy? why am i asking and wanting more? why am i still holding on to something i chose to let go? why did i hurt you and want you back so badly now? why do i refuse to let my feelings known to you? i know you still want to care, i know you want to let me know such stuffs cos i still matter. you tell no one else but me. i'm thankful. but why am i so scared of what's going to happen to us during your retreat? can you tell me what i want to know, you can read my mind, tell me.i really hate myself.
