it's 430am now, and i got to be up in 3 hours time -.-
i'm gotta be so dead tired, and i doubt i can wake up, but i need to. else i'll get screwed terribly!

anyway i havent blogged for super duper long lah, i think i have never not blogged for so long, but have been busy with work and everyday i reach home, i dont feel like going online. so girls, i havent been missing and not thinking of you, but just cos i dont have the time lah!

i do miss you girls lah! sometimes when i pass by certain places, it reminds me of us, and i just wonder how we made it this far! since 2000 when we were in secondary two. 6 years girls! i didnt manage to spend christmas nor new year's day with you girls, but at least i called to ask where you were! so near yet so far eh, i was at esplanade working and you guys were there wanting to watch the fireworks. so the point is, i miss each and every single one of you, and i do hope everyone is fine, i know some are not, but i do hope you girls will move on and start living your life happily =)

so let's start from christmas.
christmas eve was spent working. i cant rmbered what happened, but it was busy and there were loads of couples lah. we had intended to stay over at al dente with roy, eric oh, madeline and myself, but fabian didnt allow. so roy suggested going to his place to mahjong. but in the end, we didnt mahjong. hurhur. they drank and madeline couldnt take it and puked. but we had the experts to make her feel better, so yeah she got better. i was amazed by what eric oh did, and i rmbered he was a bartender, but having to have someone puke on your hand, knowing that will happen and you allowed that to happen, i really have got nothing to say. one of a kind.

i wont forget christmas night, what happened that night. it's secret =)

i rmbered vincent calling me to wish me merry christmas which didnt really catch me by surprise, cos i sent an sms to him at 12 to wish him too. but after that i realised he didnt receive anything prolly due to the lagging network. and so you can say he called me on his own accord! i thought that was sweet! so yeah, i was super happy hearing from him =)

chatted for awhile, and i must admit, i missed him. sometimes i just wonder what it would have been if not for the past. nevertheless, he stands a special place in my heart. and it will always be. it isnt easy forgetting someone who has stepped into my life, that's me i suppose.

so after operation hours, we went to makansutra and da bao food back to eat. haha. we were so excited. lols. and we took lots of pictures. and you know i'm lazy to upload them now. hur.

ah boy gave me pressie! heh. and eric oh locked me in the store and a sunflower appeared in front of my face! i was damn surprised cos he did ask me what flowers i liked just the day before! haha. he alrdy planned it lah!

and two days after christmas we played tong siao mahjong at john's place! just after work we had this urge to play la, so we headed home, got changed and went to john's place. eric oh came along too! heh, cos i was there lah. lols. finally we played tgther! weeee! so there was roy, ah boy, john, with me and eric pairing up. roy was damn good la, professional. so we played till 6am, went to macs at northpoint, madeline came too. and we slacked till 9am or so, before ah boy and eric went to work, and the rest headed home for sleep!

smsed stuffs with eric. tons of it. doesnt matter what the outcome is, what matters most is being happy. nothing beats the feeling of feeling happy doesnt it? heh.

new year's eve was amazing. really. one of the best new year's eve i had.
i was at work and the crowd was just omg. by 11 plus, everyone was coming to al dente to ask if there's vancies. but duh lah, the best place to watch the fireworks was the rooftop at al dente lah. despite the set dinner costing 100 bucks per person, the whole restaurant was fully booked like days ago, so we just kept rejecting people la.

but when it was 1158 when the fireworks started, me and grace chiong to the rooftop. haha, we were damn cute lah. lols. the fireworks was just, simply beautiful. i was really stunned and just stood there watching. never in my life have i stood so close to watch a firework. the patterns and designs were amazing and i just went woah. i video-ed it! not only the fireworks marked a beautiful beginning to 2006, it was the company i had. at that very moment when it was 12, i had almost everyone at al dente around me. we hugged and wished. pure happiness.

i dont know why, this might just be a part time job to me, but i do feel a sense of belonging to that place. i love the people there, perhaps even more than the pasta peeps. i feel attached to them, and i just enjoy hanging out with them. lovely peeps. without them, i guess i wouldnt be what i am now.

i wouldnt have moved on this fast, i wouldnt be smiling this wide now.
and more importantly, i wouldnt have realised so much. so that's why i love them so much! and the often suppers at 925 with the yishuners, craps and bitching. if not for them, laughters wouldnt be around.

but 2006 marked lots of changes at al dente.
cutting down of manpower, sacking people.
the changing room now seems so empty and cold.
used to be human traffic at 530 when roll call started, but now, there's no one to snatch with you. john has also left al dente, and is now in charge for catering department, but i'm glad we still managed to meet up twice this week for supper! so we had sort of a farewell for him on the 1st at partyworld.

it was hilarious, the way they danced and sang and crapped and played. i loved the way roy and ashid danced. haha. professional clubbers. lols. we partied till 6am! and took lots of pictures! we hugged and went round taking pictures of the main character that night. what more can i say, where can you find such closely knitted bond between colleagues? i just love them! after that, headed to meritus mandrin for breakfast. and it sucked. and it was freaking costly lah. one plate of chicken rice is like 20+++ but we didnt really complain la since we were dining at a hotel.

but the food was horrid. we had chefs with us so they sort of knew how they prepared it. it was really disappointing. the food was cold and hard, yucks. we could have made a big hoo ha, but we didnt. breakfast cost almost 200 for 6. never going back there again.

it's 5am alrdy lah. i dont think it's a long entry for the so many days i didnt blog. but my mind cant really function now. so it's better than nothing lah. at least i updated when i'm so freaking tired! heh.

so now my life is like work and school. it's tiring but without work, means lesser income, so i will just continue working everyday!

eric has been transferred to holland village. it's the exact same thing that happened to vincent too the other time, and i just wonder, if the outcome would be the same. eric told me to believe and be strong, yes i will.

i dont know if i'm really happy. sometimes i feel i am, sometimes i feel i am not. but i have learnt to see more than what i could in the past. relationships arent everything. i've grown a little stronger i suppose, without them, i can still move on and live my life well.

the rather new part timers at al dente are all quite young, and i do see myself in some of them. like madeline, i see the old me in her. unable to move on cos of her past relationship, crying when we see touching couples at al dente, but i know, someday she will move on and be happy just as she was before the break up. do hope that she'd be able to recover soon, i dont want her to be like me. i'm sure she can with us around!

the people at work make me laugh.
they will make her laugh too! haha.
there have been transfer over the last week, and i hope the transfer will stop very soon. i hate leaving them. i just hate it.
3 months of craps together have made me fallen in love with them, so i hate the thought of parting with them. i heart them alot.

i think i'm ending the post now. shall upload the pictures soon! :)

brianna
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