it's going to be a crappy post cos i'm not exactly feeling that great now.

am just wondering lots of stuffs.
was just telling eric liu just now how i spent my vday over the past few years. and each year i had a "him" and this year, it's going to be spent with no "him." aint exactly sad over this, but just wondering what would things be like if his happiness didnt mean so much to me. if his happiness didnt mean so much, we'd still be holding on, but no, i chose to let him go.

i appear as if i aint bothered, as if it's just a small issue, but deep inside, i wished things didnt turn out this way. i'm truely happy with him around, i'm truely grateful that we met in such an unique way, i truely appreciate that he held on cus of my happiness too, but i'd rather he seek his happiness in another way.

was looking forward to spend this day with him i was mentally prepared tt he had to work, same goes for me, but at least i could sms him to send my greetings to him, as well as the present i had in mind to make it for him.

whatever. i made a promise to myself and i'm going to stick to it. at least for now. and though things happened, it wasnt tt bad afterall. i had friends who rallied around me when they knew what happened, coming up with programmes to keep me entertained. haha.

zhen and "uh huh", eric liu and his friends, melissa =)
met many of their friends who became my new friends over the weekend. haha. and melissa and eric were friends all along during secondary school and they finally met up cos i was supposed to meet both of them but didnt have the time, so might as well meet as one big group!

my weekend was spent with melissa, eric and ching yong mahjong-ing, with zhen and "uh huh" and the rest walking aimlessly around orchard! and watching fireworks with eric and ching yong at al dente as a customer!

went to melissa's contest today and i swear she was beautiful. kenny and her were the best couple in my heart! even eric thought so. i've got a pretty girlfriend! haha.

have been spending quite alot of time with eric and the bond's definately stronger than before. he just told me stuffs, stuffs that he had been deceiving me all along. aint anything serious, aint angry over it but just curious about who is it this time round. he just refuses to tell me and when i'm pek chek, he is feeling that way too.

cant help but ask myself lots of questions.
he even agreed to lunch and dinner everyday so that he wouldnt have to say what i want to know! how secretive can he be! argh. irritated.

anyway, working at cityhall tmr. first day at work, hope all goes well for me. am working 2 jobs now, hopefully income would be better. meeting markie from pasta after work tmr! hopefully zul will be back in singapore!

i miss these crappy guys so much!
havent seen them since sept last year!

i'm feeling better now after ranting.
but i still dont understand how that someone could make me feel that way. i surprised myself. but i shant say much here. you never know who reads it.

whatever.
i'm going to bed now.

brianna
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