i saw a quote which i thought was quite meaningful.


And i just wondered, do we really shut our memories without realising? Or is it cos we choose to shut it out? Was having lunch with viki today after setup at marina, and we talked about our boys. She told me that she read my blog about the post where i mentioned i've managed to delete all the smses that i've kept from the specials, and that she's happy for me.

And then, i was just talking to nic on the phone when he mentioned about chris. He asked me some stuffs, and i just really couldnt remember the things we did. I used to be able to memorise the smses he sent, like just the first few words and i could continue what the whole sms contained, or what we did. Not all but definately more than what i can now.

It seems like now, i cant even remember one whole sms that was sent to me. Haha. The flashbacks that i used to have, have somehow not haunted me as well.

Is it because we have found another form of happiness, and the old ones just slowly leave? I'm amazed by myself, because all along i thought i treasure my memories, but then, suddenly i realise, i've forgotten lots of them.

Just the other day, chris dropped by my place for a chat. It has been almost half a year since we last met. You can say it's the first meeting since we broke up. For no reason, he just called to say he'll be waiting for me at my block for a chat. And that was at 3 in the morning.

In the past, i wanted to see him so badly and he just refused. The want to see him cos i was missing him too much, which led to the tears and pain seem so far away now, but it's just 6 months. And now, when i dont have the thought of wanting to see him, he just pops up like this.

It happened to maddy too. She has been waiting for her ex boyfriend for such a long time. She was missing him so badly, wanted to see him so badly. And finally after months, she plucked up her courage to ask him the questions she has kept with her for months. The answers left her in pain, in tears. After so long, she has finally managed to move on well and fine, she managed to get out of the dark past. And just when everything's smooth sailing for her, the ex boyfriend appeared and wanted her back.

When she wanted to meet him so badly, he didnt want to.
And when she didnt want to see him, he appeared just like this.

I cant help but think guys are weird creatures.
Cant they freaking learn to treasure what they have?
Why do they always have to wait till the girl is attached then ask her back?

And why is it when we want something, we cant seem to be able to reach for it? And when we decide to let it go, it comes looking for us?

I'm just ranting cos these are just some random thoughts in my mind :)

So it's tuesday! Finally it's here! It's the day i'm gonna spend with baby!
Was supposed to head to ecp for cycling, but we decided not to cos baby has got driving lessons till 3! And it's just too rush!

So, we are gonna head to downtown east to check out the rates for the chalet! Silly him just wants to travel down to check out the promotions! He doesnt trust the ones online! Lol. And after that, got to head down to wheelock to check out the sizes for birks and i can order them online! And we're going for movies and bowling tmr!

Baby's sweet, cos we're gonna watch the movie i want! Haha.
Going to Marina. I'm still going there on my off day. But that's the only place with bowling and cinema i suppose. Heh.

I know it's gonna be a day full of craps and laughters!
Monster will definately do silly things! Boo!

Got to wake that monster up later at 930!
He's been really sweet these few nights.
Because we dont talk that much during the day now, he makes up for it at night! And i'm just so happy that he's putting in so much effort into us :)

Oh! I forgot to mention he did something damn silly just now!
I was telling him i missed him so much, and he used to his web cam! And i could see him! Was super duper happy! And he was doing funny actions infront of the cam! He gave me a goodbye kiss! Lols.

And i mentioned yesterday that we had telepathy cos of the jian fei issue! And today, something similar happened again! I was talking to my friends about playing mahjong and smsing baby at the same time. And he smsed me that he suddenly had the urge to play mahjong! I was WOAH?

It happened twice! Dont tell me it's just coincidental.
I think it's telepathy :)

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