so i had media law paper yesterday and it was the first time i had an open book exam. and i was just copying notes into the answer booklet. i was telling cher i dont understand why they still give us 2hrs despite it being an open book exam and her reply was like, "cos it's media law" and i just laughed. and now i understand. i was writing non-stop for that 2hrs and i didnt even manage to finsh all questions lah. wrote till my hands were damn tired and till my head was like slanted, and almost kissed the answer booklet lah! lols.

anyway it's over. so there's nothing much i can do except to pray it'll turn out fine :)

went to have steamboat after the exam with chummies! and we were just "touring" around school lah. it was sort of the last official visit to school to them, and so, we went to co-op then to the FMS office and we finally got out of school at 5 plus! and the whole evening was full of jokes and craps, with fy and vicky around, the 2 of them tgether is just plain madness lah! especially the video thing. haha, we are quite dirty lah, still can discuss about all these, talk about the tiny details. haha. took some pictures but am too lazy to upload. let's see if i have the mood later on!

poly life has ended for most of us, and in the days to come, we might not be meeting that often. i know i wouldnt be rushing and doing projects with them in the remaining semester i have left, and part of me do feel empty.

knowing i'd have new classmates, having to work with new faces doesnt feel good. but i guess, i only have myself to blame. and whatever it is, i'm thankful i met this bunch of people in poly. it's a sort of bonding we have whereby the whole group of us just laugh with one another without knowing when or over what, talking about stuffs that we can all laugh about together, giving moral support to each other and the many tiny things that make this friendship special. i have never had such a friendship and it's definately a friendship that means more than anything.

have known some since day 1 of poly, and some in year 2.
i still rmber knowing jiajia beh in year 2. and that was how the whole big group got together. small groups that formed into this big group we have now. lots of memories indeed.
the cycling days at east coast park, the chalet we had, bday celebrations for each other, rushing projects overnight, shopping trips, working at smu and lots more.

fy wrote all of us a card which was really sweet.
and the things she wrote in mine just made me ponder lots.
and in some way or another, i guess things do change ovetime. i realised i havent been to bugis with her in a long long time, neither have i talked on the phone for hours with her. things we used to do so often were left aside since ages ago. and she's right about some stuffs. i knew her unhappiness yet i didnt bother, how bad am i. fy's definately one of the best i met, a friend who puts everyone above her, doing little things to show our importance to her. and i think, there's really no one else like fy. as chris used to say, she has "a heart full of gold." and she's my xiao ke ai :)

and there's melissa, my girl.
i rmbered our quarrels we had back in year 1, how she cried cos of me. it sounds dumb, and thinking about it now, it shows how much we have grown. from an innocent looking girl to a model now, what can i say about this girl of mine? there's nothing more i can ask for, cos she has given me a friendship that will stay for life.

had a heart to heart talk with her after steamboat, when the rest were playing at the arcade. she has never spoken to me about this issue and i'm really glad i was there when she needed someone. i could feel her pain. she didnt really want to show out, but i could see the tears in her eyes. she's indeed one strong girl and i really hope, everything will be fine for her.

and there are the others in the group. comparing melissa and fy to the rest, i wasnt that close to them. but in a way or so, each or them have given me memories too. and it's pleasant that our paths crossed too!

ningxi, jiajia, vicky, cheng yee, cher and anna.
didnt spend much time individually, but with your presence in our group, there's definately more smiles. we had our fair share of unhappiness and happiness. i rmbered vicky and i once had some friction in the past over a dumb issue, but am glad that we've put things behind and at least, we can talk like friends. and cher, how she gave me advice when i was feeling down, how she brought me and chris together. and how vicky, cher and me used to travel to the east together. it seems like it just happened recently, but it has been months ago. haha.

this friendship with this bunch of people is one hell of an experience. and i enjoyed all the memories and days we had!

sincerely wish that in the days to come, every single one of these specials will be successful, be it in career or studies :) will meet up in ktv soon! and we've to support ah dawn in her drama! i love all of you! *huggies*

chatted with chris on msn just now and i'm certain of my feelings now. i've really realised who matters most. and i'm certain the feelings i had have faded cos he no longer makes my heart pong pong tiao! haha. and i really realised that, he's different from that someone now. the two of them have different places in my heart.

anyway, caught up quite alot with him, and am glad that he's doing fine. still as cocky as ever, still as kns as ever, but that's what makes him tiong poh tiam. glad all's well and okay for him, at least he's sweetly in love. he even told me he smokes like only 3 sticks now cos of her, but shall see in the days to come! and i really want to see how he's going to make it to NS. haha.

but somehow, i know he will do just fine, cos as i said, he's tiong poh tiam. haha.

my eyes are so heavy!
i'm heading to bed!
good night!

brianna
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