It's 4.06am. And i'm sitting infront of my laptop collating everyone's report into a class report for convex. I hate last minute work. Sighs. Dont know who to blame, but thanks to sylvia for sharing the same thought as me. At least i know it isnt just me thinking that way.

Why cant people spare a thought for others before doing anything? Or even, saying anything?
I was helping this particular someone who isnt really on good terms with me. I was so busy, everyone was sending me stuffs and i was so pek chek, yet i taught and guided this person through, helping here whenever i could. I waited almost 2 hours for this person to complete, and when this person finally did, this person left without a "thank you for your help", "or sorry to keep you waiting." When this person sent me the file, before i could say anything, it showed that this person's status on msn was offline. Sighs.

Not like i needed that thank you or sorry.
But then, i helped you all night. Perhaps we arent the best of friends or even hi bye friends and the past hinders us, but then, the fact stays that i helped you remains. You ought to appreciate my help, else you could have done nothing, because you knew nothing at all.

Sighs. Not just this incident alone tonight.
There are others which make me feel like wth.
Why am i doing all this at 4am? Sighs.
I seriously cant wait to get out of school, get done with all these.


And there's work.
Right now, i dont feel like working.
Who understand what it feels like staying back for another semester because i over worked and resulted in all these shit. I feel shitty enough that dad has to fork out another sum of money cos of my stupidity, and that's why now i just want to get work done and graduate.

But then, what do they say?
I'm out mahjong-ing and enjoying myself, not wanting to help him to work. Sighs.
Even when i informed them i cant make it, i got attitude from mervyn. I really couldnt take it anymore, and just slashed whatever feelings i had into that sms and sent it to him. I was prepared to get sacked, seriously. I just felt so unwanted. Argh.

Sometimes i just need people to understand me at times like this.
But then, who is there?
I dare not say there is anyone because sometimes i feel, even the dearest do not understand me.

People throw a fit for a reason, not just any reason.
It's because it affected that person, that's why he/she is feeling that way.
Isnt that the case?

Okay, i dont know what i'm saying.
I shall say things that made me happy :)

I met up with madeline, zk, hua and daniel today for mj!
And the happy thing was i won! I really need to thank hua, cos for both times, it was she who arranged the tiles that made me win big! Heh.

But somehow, i felt daniel wasnt himself today. Not like i know him that well, but he wasnt even talking today, just playing for the sake of playing, and smsing whenever the game ended. It was just a weird feeling. And when i asked him while we went to buy food, he said nothing. Shrugs. Just hope he's fine.

Hua was all the same, friendly and chirpy! Lols.
And zk was damn lame. Image a guy sitting on the chair with a dog on his lap, asking the dog to sniff the tile. Hurhur. That was what he did!

And then, there's baby! :)
I think he loves this part the most, where it concerns him! Haha.

Elene and soon meng saw him at Jp today. Lols. What a small world, and elene said some stuffs about baby that probably made him fly high lah! Cos in the sms he was saying "your friend say i handsome leh!" Lols. She praised him quite abit i'd say, haha.

This girl here, never met before. And i chanced upon her blog almost a year ago, only to realise she is soon meng's girl! Haha. She's what i call a miracle friend. We chatted quite a bit and it's fun talking to her cos we have the same topic in mind! :) And i'm just glad that things btw them are going on even better now!

Stay the way you are girl. Happy! :)

Baby is probably complaining why all elene no him! Haha!
Here he comes!

I dota-ed for the first time!
The reason is very obvious, cos of him lah, who else! And i'm addicted. i said it sucked but it's fun lah! It's not fun on 1st try, on 2nd try it's okay. But when you get the hang of it, it's damn shiok! Especially when you know how to play it, you'll definately want to play more! I even brought my laptop to his place just to play dota lah! Haha.

And i've been watching vcds again.
I was bored at his place and started watching the liu xing hua yuan again! And at home, dou yu. Lols. It has been some time, and i cant rmber what happened lah, so it isnt tt bad afterall! And his sister is watching er mo now! And cos she was playing it tt day, i was watching it till i was late for school! You know me, once i start watching er mo, i cant stop! =/

Haha, and i rmbered how excited i was when i just got to know baby, and knowing he watched er mo too! Lols.

Anyway, i stayed 4 nights at his place =D
*BIG BIG smile*

Nothing beats the feeling of having to hug you to sleep, knowing you're right beside me even when i'm in dreamland, and seeing you the first thing in the morning.

So much to say to this darling, till a point where i think 100 pages isnt even enough. But where do i start? There are simply too many 1001 things. I think i should come up with a storybook about us.



** p/s: i want the same levi's watch!

Suddenly reminded of the sms that special someone sent to me.
Some words for her.

Some things arent within our control.
So long as you know you've put in all your heart, you know you've tried your best, dont blame yourself or anyone. Dont give up too, because you nver know what god has in mind for you. Results arent everything, and of cos, it doesnt mean it means nothing. It's just that we've got to be practical and contented.

Studying in such a school isnt an easy task in the 1st place.
You have that results over there, but out there at other schools, you'll be high up there. And trust me, i know you are better than many out there.

If you think you want to take this route, go ahead. Dont care abt what others may say. Just tell yourself not to have any regrets. I myself, is probably the best example. Mum and dad wanted me to go JC but i was stubborn and refused. Her expectations of me went from there to there. But aint i alive and kicking? Life may not be that good, but at last i know it's definately better than what it'd have been, had i lead the life they wanted me to. This is your life, live it the way you want, and not what others want. Of course, know what's good and what's bad. And before you take any step, make sure you know what you're doing.

That's all i have for you, and i hope things are better for you now :)
Jia you kay! You have full support from me! *hugs*

brianna
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