Everytime i do something, i wished that someone could react.
Sometimes that someone does, sometimes that someone doesnt.
And during the times that that someone doesnt, it's disappointing.
Maybe it's more of hurt and pain, coupled with that disappointment.
And all i can do is pretend i aint affected at all, pretend it's just a joke, that i'm alright and continue smiling and joking behind the screen.

The fact is, i aint alright.
Maybe that someone cares, yet doesnt show out.
But i ask myself, if a friend who is sick and that someone can show concern, doesnt it mean that someone knows how to express his concern?

And when the tears drop, that someone wont even know.
Because it just droppped.
And at the moment the tears dropped, i received an sms from brother.

No doubt that he's the one who is concerned about my everything.
He just sent a sms telling me why he didnt mention me leaving AD during the chat we had in the morning, coupled with lodas of advices and encourgement.

But perhaps, i wished these words that were said to me, were being said by another person.

I dont want to say it, but he cares for me more than you do.

brianna
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