I havent felt so tired for a long time.
After tution last night, all i wanted to do was to head home to sleep.
Whether it's cos i didnt sleep the previous night, or was it cos i didnt want to think about any unhappy issues, i just wanted to lie in bed and sleep my way through.

Didnt manage to acheive that though.
Cher and larry were desperate to play mahjong, and they even got butch to join us. And 3 people from the east travelled to the north to play mahjong. Haha. Their presence somehow made the place less filled with thoughts.

Larry and butch were the winners, and as cher and i put it, he was "disgusting." Haha. It was quite a fun night with a bit of "high" and lame laughters. There was one point of time where all of us were laughing except for larry because of something which i cant rmber. Haha.

I've gotten the job at starhub :)
Didnt thought i'd be offered the job, cos the interview was quite just alright only. It's so different from the others i have gone to.

Pay's good, and it's a 6 months contract.
The only thing holding me back is the location.
It's at ayer rajar crescent and i'm staying at yishun. HAHA.
Journey plus waiting time, to be safe is erms, 2 hours. And this is going to cost a bomb in my transport fare. And i will have no life, cos morning shifts may start as early as 8.30am. Boo. And that means lesser mahjong nights!

But other than these, i'm quite looking forward to working in a place like this, and learning new things which i have always wanted to learn. And of cos, meeting new people in there. While on the way walking to the human resource office, passed lots of tables with people sitting there, and they were all smiling to me. Friendly people :)

Seriously sopeaking, i've always wanted to work in this line.
I'm quite interested in the behind the scenes i think. Haha.

So i'm scheduled to start work next tuesday on the 27th.
I think i will have to give up tuitioning the two kids, which make me feel a little sad. I just want to help them make it through their last semester in primary 5, but it seems quite bleak. Boo.

Was feeling low and down before i went to tutor the boy yesterday afternoon. And surprisingly, it was anybody but him who managed to cheer me up :) Seriously, i see lots of potential in this kid though many aunties say he is playful and doesnt study.

But aunties just see the grades. To them, the grades are like everything.
They dont know what he is like during tuition. At least he's willing to try and not afraid to make mistakes. He isnt shy to pronounce words he doesnt know in his own way. He doesnt care that much about grades like what some other students i have taught do. Some will say, "eh add one more mark leh, this one is right." So what if you get that one more mark, dont you think learning from your mistakes at home, and gaining that one mark in your exams might be better?

And i guess, the reason he made that 20 marks leap in his english exam was because of his willingness to try and learn from mistakes, something which i am really proud of :) I just hope that during the times when i wont be able to teach him anymore, he will still be able to improve.

It's gonna be another night of mahjong with the usual people later on.

Anyway, my friends do not like to tag at my blog.
Haha, quite a number smsed me regarding the last post.
Thanks people. You know who you are :)

Problems are bound to come look for us, and it's these problems that make us see clearly what we want, isnt it? And it's these problems that make us stronger, and i got to admit, having dealt with such problems, have made me a stronger person.

Someone said to me, think about the r/s we have built and trust the paths we have taken, and what we have built. And suddenly it struck upon me that, perhaps what we built, isnt what we actually wanted to build?

Someone also said, love him, trust him.
And i have nothing else to say except i have loved him enough, i have trusted him enough. Sometimes i feel, i have done more than what i should. That sometimes, words like "you dont have to go through all these" flow into my mind.

Not saying that i'm gonna give him up now after what happened, just that, i think guys perceive some issues differently from females. The only thing i wish now is, that he will be able to put himself in my shoes. I have already told him my point of view, and it's only up to him whether he wants to do something about it, isnt it so?

I still want to believe what he said.
Because though part of me wants to let him go, i still heart him very much as well. So i'm just gonna believe that the decision i made is the right one.


[ edit at 9.30pm ]
After chatting with wee, i had some thoughts.

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