Listening to "imagine me without you" makes me tear.
The lyrics somehow, in a way expressed my feelings today.
And the feeling that i was holding back today, somehow just dropped with the tears that i couldnt control anymore.

I know what this feeling is, it's familiar, but yet, i dont dare tell anyone, dont dare face it. Knowing it so well does no good to me at all, isnt that what i told myself months ago? So i just told myself to smile, and look forward to the end of the day :)

Wasnt feeling good today, sucked at work, feeling moody and grumpy. Seriously, so what if the pay is good? It seems like, i'd prefer to work at al dente more than at here. The people here, i dont know what to describe.

But many thanks to those who have been "friends" with me, especially howard who surprisingly smsed me to let me know the situation at work. Sighs. Shant talk about it, it makes me feel depressed. Argh, i just feel it's freaking ass unfair kays!

Currently sitting beside this girl, who doesnt smile or say hi or bye. And when you ask her something, she gives you a face which makes you feel you shouldnt be disturbing her. Sighs. I'm dreading to go to work nowadays, and just today, i could feel myself dragging my legs to step into the office with so many people yet, less than 5 who bothers to smile at you.

Sitting there having lunch alone made me think back loads, espeically the smu days. The job scope seemed the same, but why, why am i not happy at all? I could feel the tears almost dropping when i was having lunch, i just wished i could pack my bag and leave there at that moment.

Wanted so much to call baby, wanted so much to hear his voice, but i just dropped him a sms, knowing i wont have a reply until much later. Called someone who could perk me up instead, heard good news, but i still, couldnt smile. Sorry.

Until now, feeling damn moody.
The only thing that probably made me smile was knowing i'm meeting sgf this sunday :)

It's been a long time since i met this darling of mine, and no matter how tired i am, i'm gonna make sure i meet her, else i'll have to make another appointment. Also received an unexpected sms from thomas asking me out next week :)

I heart my good friends, and people who place me in their heart.
With much love, i love you guys too :)

And of cos, i love surprises too!
Who doesnt?

Met baby after work yesterday and tada! He gave me an action city plastic bag and in it, was the froggy box i wanted! I didnt expect him to actually rmbered what i said, and he actually went to buy it :)

And the previous night, while i was nailing my nails, i told myself to buy new ones cos the old one has got no friction anymore. And whether it's whatever sense we call it, the next day, baby gave me a nail filer. Hurhur, amazing eh? :)

With these in mind, i think i can put a smile on my face before i go to bed tonight. Not a very wide smile, but at least, it's still a smile.



Imagine me without you,
I be lost and so confused.
I wouldn't last a day,
I'd be a afraid without you to see me through.

Lord you knw it's just impossible,
Becus if you, it's all brand new.
My life is all worth while,
I cant imagine me without you.

brianna
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