Was reading josan's blog and i realised we're both in the same boat!
It's so coincidental, and it's damn dots. Even josan thinks so lah! Though it aint any happy things, and it seems like we are both fine and happy, chatting with much laughters, as if nothing has happened, i know she's feeling the same way as me.

We dont feel the least good. Putting on a strong front so that people around us wont worry, only breaking down where people cant see us. She went drinking yesterday and cried her heart out. I cried my heart out in the morning under my pillow. Different ways of letting go of the misery, but for the same reason.

Cried for two hours, eyes are puffy enough, plus totally not in the mood to do anything.
Told jason what happened and he was really very understanding. Words that he said, enough to make me tear, which did make me tear a little. Which manager is willing to let his staff rest and do the closing by himself? A manager stacking chairs and tables, doing all the heavyload? That isnt called a manager lah. Feel bad enough that i dont feel like turning up for work when there is not enough people working already, told him that i really didnt feel like working, and he totally understood me. Appreciate it loads jason :)

Feeling a hell lot better now.
Heart isnt that painful anymore.
This morning was horrible. Just cried and cried non-stop. Pain was unbearable. Boo. This pain, was worst than the one i had before, but the pain has already subsided.

And sorry for the previous post, was blogged when i was really angry and disappointed with someone.

I dont know if i made the correct choice, if i made the right decsion. But like josan, we both have our regrets, at least a little, but we both know clearly, who is the one in our hearts, who's the one whom we love, and we finally realise, what is it that we want now.

Havent eaten for two days already lah! I just dont have the appetite. Was really hungry this morning, stomach was making weird noises but i just didnt feel like eating. Even when my mum was boiling some nice smelling soup, i didnt feel like drinking lah. And i havent slept a wink. Feels damn tired and i can sleep the moment i lie on my bed, but i dont feel like sleeping either. Just got a feeling that i need to stay awake, for whatever reasons.

Enough said.
I've finally found khakis for steamboat! :)
Have had this craving since new year's eve! Was supposed to go have steamboat with nic, but was cancelled out cos we mahjong-ed, and since then, i have been having this craving! Boo. Gonna gobble down all the food later!

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This one week would probably be a hard one, one which i never had to experience before. But i gave the promise to someone else, and i give it to you too. No matter what happens, the facts wont change. I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else :)

Looking forward to the meet up sgf! Hearing your voice from LOOONDOOON was totally awesome. Thanks for the smses despite the costs! Love you tons! :)

It's one the most dreadful sundays i ever had.
Boo.

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