I'm watching a new drama now and it makes my mind think a little.
I wonder how these people in the show can be so positive towards life even when faced with setbacks.

Whether it's setbacks with work, friends, relationship, rivals and what not, they seem to be able to tell themselves tomorrow will be a better day, or still manage a smile somehow.
Though tears fall, their hearts ache, but at the end of the day, it's amazing how they still can think positively and give themselves support and comfort.

It's all in the mind i suppose.
Like nookie, a friend at al dente.
He's one fellow who really amuses me.
He may be in his 30s, but every now and then, he tells me his feelings at work, his personal problems and other issues, and i'm surprised how someone of his age still voices his unhappiness and happiness out.

Not that older people dont do so, but it's so rare.
He's positive towards life and almost every setback he faces.
Everytime, he'd tell me "no hard feelings" when something unpleasant happens.
And each time i hear this, i smile to myself.

Because of such people who dont take things to heart, who give and forget, it makes this place a better one, dont you think so?

I talked to him at the bus stop today while waiting for the bus again.
And each conversations we have always allow me to learn new things, new lessons in life. He's really one amazing fellow to talk to. Though he says i'm always teaching him new things at work, i think he's more valuable than me, cos he teaches me lessons in life, and these are worthless.

If only i could be as positive thinking as them, it'd be great. Boo.
Sometimes, i just dont have the confidence.

I'm still trying to get used to the life i'm leading now though. Hurhur.
POSITIVE. STRONG. INDEPENDENT.
But i'm SO much more happier than the past few months! :)

Watching the drama, i somehow felt the sweetest thing is having your rival to be there for you when you need someone. Though colleagues, they were rivals in love yet when each of them needed help, they offered theirs silently. They may not show it out, but the other party can feel, and i think it's a really sweet feeling.

Life's pretty much mundane for me.
Working my ass off this week with no off day.
But mahjong is still on. HAHA.

If you know me, i play mahjong damn often.
But i hate it when someone called me a gamble freak cos i play the game not cos of the gambling but cos i just like the game and the strategies. Dont understand, dont assume and think in your own ways. If you think it's cock, i wouldnt be surprise cos any thoughts and comments that dont match your thinking is cock to you :)

And to zx, i know i somehow hurt you today when you asked me those questions. Dont blame me for being straight forward cos i dont want to waste your time and efforts. I know what it's like to feel rejected and dejected, the feelings of emptiness and heartache, and i dont want you going through that. Whether it's a crush or love, like i said, i believe the feelings will go away soon. Not that you're not good enough or other reasons, i can tell by your actions how hard you're trying. The way you contact me every now and then, always wanting to have dinner or lunch together, wanting to wait for me to end work, plus that 6am surprise was enough to show your feelings. But right now, my heart is numbed and i dont want to step into a rs. I cant trust anymore, i lost faith and hope, and more importantly, my heart refuses to accept anyone now, cos it still belongs to someone out there whom i have mentioned to you. I'm sure you're matured enough to know why i did those, and like i said, i'll still treat you as my friend. Nonetheless, i'm sorry but thanks for the things you've done for me :)


Have a good day, faceless people.

brianna
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