It was the last day of april and somehow, i felt exceptionally happy!
Work was about gossiping and just slacking and supper-ing!
Happy pot again! HAHA.

Happy pot makes us happy lah!
Angie and me were having a fun time bbq-ing the steak lah :)
Good service, plus extra ingredients, still got bbq sauce lah!

It's a brand new month and a brand new start!
It's going to be a HAPPIER MONTH!
And a much BUSIER one!
*smiles! =)*


Plans so far for this month:
- Sgf's birthday dinner/lunch
- Farewell party for the trainees
- New job

I really foresee a busy month.
I'm going to work my ass off to earn moniiiiesss!
And i'm looking forward to the new changes in my new phrase of life!
Gonna be strong and independent and happy! :)

With that burden off my shoulders, i think i'm a much happier person!
I have never felt the kind of happiness i had today for a long time.
I did it on my own! :)
*yay-ness to that! pops champagne to celebrate! haha*

I have seen for myself the things i have been wanting to know.
All along, i have seen it. Perhaps it was just me lying to myself, not wanting to accept the facts, not wanting to believe them. choosing to believe that it's just like this cos of blahblahblah reaons.

Today, i accepted them and i believed them.
And i told myself stop lying.

I realised different people behave differently.
Some people prefer to state things black and white, to make things damn clear, while some people just like to assume and have the attitude of youknowiknowcanalready, dont have to spell it out.

But whatever it is, i think i had enough.
And i guess, i dont even have to make the decision or say anything, cos what's lying infront of me is far too clear for my eyes, i can get the msg damn clearly.

If you want it this way, so be it.
Cos i learnt the heckcare and whatever attitude from you.

This time, i learnt to keep my diginity and pride.
And what they have been telling me is right, i deserve the happiness, to fight for my own happiness and be treated like a human being, and not treated like a toy to be played around with.

There's alot more that i want to say, all the unhappiness and anger and incidents that made me pissed, that i have been bottling down since all the pekcek-ness came in!
But shall wait till another day, cos i dont want to spoil this happy post!



Many many thanks to the darlings who have been listening to my troubles all these while, especially my sgf! :)

brianna
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