There's really nothing i can say to express my thanks to you.
Writing a card, putting it into the box, reading it the very 1st thing i reached office, was nothing more beautiful by starting my morning. I've never been this happy in office, smiling so widely. I know you'd wish you could do it daily, cos you know i love receiving cards, but i also know you wont that much time on hand to do so every single day. Hee.
Nonetheless, for this very 1st card, i'm thankful.
And i'm really happy.
And i cant wait to receive the 2nd to the 100th card!
You cant imagine me reading this at office, grinning from ear to ear.
You really brightened up my day to a very huge extend.
And i just wanna tell you the same thing, i dont regret knowing you too.
And i never will :)
People have disagreements with the way i think of you, but i dont give a damn. I just feel sorry for them that they dont know you, yet want to pass remarks and assume things the way they want to. They've just missed an opportunity to know a great friend, a great person full of knowledge, full of zest and the silliest jokes.
I'm proud despite all, you dont detest her, neither do you rebut her remarks. Your words have showed you accept her words, and in there, it may hurt a little, yet you can continue to act so cool and calm, all because you dont want to strain the friendship we have. Even after being criticised, you still can speak up for her, this i'm proud cos it just shows your magnanimousness.
Thank you baby,
For always being there when i need to rant;
For being understanding;
For your thoughtfulness;
For giving me all the support in everything i do;
For having a big heart and always accomodating to me;
For bringing such colourful days into my life;
For everything.
The song that is playing on the background is also dedicated for you.
The lyrics are everything i feel about you.
Much love baby <3
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And to you, i guess you'll probably be reading this too.
I dont have anything against you, neither am i angry with you anymore.
In fact, i feel so much better after spilling out all that i've been hiding inside.
Because of respect, of friendship, though it hurt, i never voiced out.
Not even to him, cos i dont wish the relationship btw you and him to be worst.
But yesterday i've reached my limit.
I dont deny that i once wished you could just change your opinion of him, cos it isnt fair to just pass such remarks when you dont even know him as a person, probably just from words passing from one to another, from work related issues, or other what nots.
We all make mistakes, and i dont deny that sometimes i work, i provide wrong information to customers unknowingly. We all want to provide the customer service to customers, dont we? So why place such a biased opinion towards someone cos of work related issues which was unintended?
I once wished the 3 of us could sit down and have a meal together, to laugh and talk together.
But yesterday, i no longer carried such hopes.
You are one of the most straightforward person i ever known, and this trait is not found in many indeed. I admire you for this.
But sometimes, without your knowledge, the way you act and talk, it just hurts people, it just pisses someone off. The bomb really exploded yesterday. What you've been yakking about, meeting him at whatever place and how suay you were to see him there, how the air will be fresher if he werent there, it hurts. You rmber you saying you dont give a damn if he says hi to you? Honestly speaking, he dont give a damn if you say hi to him too. But why is he doing so?
He once said, all of us are working under the same roof, we're all colleagues, hence the reason. He knows what you feel about him, yet he's taking the 1st step to approach you. It's not that he's my boyfriend that i'm speaking up for him, but i'm just stating things from my pespective, definately not on a biased note.
I do not like how that particular someone treats you too.
But i dont say the things you said till such an extend, cos i respect your choice, i respect your relationship. To you, maybe you feel i can have all the rightes to say too, i can jolly well say that too. But no, i wont, simply cos i dont wish to hurt you, and cos i respect you.
Comparing him and calvin, i'd very confidently say calvin is better than your other half. I dont think i need to say more to convince you my choice. Ever wondered each time you criticised him, how it feels like? Many a times, i just wanted to shut you off by saying if you feel that way about him, look your own half, is he any better? Or he is just worst off?
I just wanted to ask you to stop it, cos yours is no better.
In fact, so much worst.
I wanted to ask you to take a look at yourself before passing remarks about others.
This may hurt, that's why i held back what i wanted to say for months.
I'm not angry with you, so dont have to try so hard, to make things up.
You dont have to aplogise either, so dont keep saying sorry.
Just think about yourself.
What you've always thought about yourself and people around you. Whether it's towards him or others, you're always passing criticism about people, think about it, do they really deserve it?
Life is a learning journey no matter how old you may be.
I'm not asking you to take it as a lesson learnt, but probably, just learn to be a better person, a more tactful person, and you'll realise it's a much easier way to live your life, to be filled with happiness more than sorrows. You've been complaining it's so hard to breathe, you arent happy. But perhaps you may realise in the process, how you can breathe easier, and how you can solve your own problems.
