Today was a fufilling day :)

Started work as usual and when work ended, i was considering what to eat for lunch. I had a craving for pasta again, so i headed to NTUC, spent $30 bucks on grocery and headed back to cook! Grabbed convenience food, desserts, snacks, and whatever i felt like grabbing, haha.

The pasta was good!
I made almond jelly too! :)
Then, i spent the evening reading my book by Nicholas Sparks.
It's been lying on my table for weeks, and finally, i decided to start reading it.

I have always loved his books.
It's so descriptive that you can literally visualise whatever that is written in it. And his story just makes me want to continue reading the book nonstop.

It was good, and i was so engrossed that i spent the next few hours completing the whole book. I wished he had written more though, so that i had more to read. Haha. It made me tear while reading towards the end, and it left me with thoughts that i havent been thinking much these days.

I guess, i'm no longer as emotional as i used to be.
I used to think alot, while walking, while taking scrolls, and even when i'm travelling. But these days, these thoughts seemed to have disappeared far away. And i didnt even realise until today when i completed the book.

Honey commented to me that when she read my past entries, like back to 2005, and the ones presently, it has changed. The thinkings, the way i write and blog, haha. When she told me, i felt i didnt change much, but now, thinking about her words, i think i did. Perhaps, as thinking changes, i guess the way you interpret things, perceive certain things, and express your words and thoughts are different too.

When we are young, we think we are old enough to understand things.
We blame others for what that has happened, we think others are unreasonable and what nots. In short, we think we're the king/queen and we are always right.
But when we are older, we start to realise how immature we were, and how much more things that are in store for you to learn and explore.

We were innocent people, satisfied with a simple mentality.
But as we grow older, you realise, life is not that simple afterall.
The working society is full of backstabbers and complications, you realise humans are scary creatures who adorn masks, you want a more stable rs that will work out, and not the kind of "see how it goes" attitude, the amount of bills we have to pay, and the many more social responsibilities that will are burdened with.

I dont deny, each time i look back, many a times i regret actions that i have taken. Even at 22, i still regret things that could have happened just this year. I look back, thinking why did i do this?

Some people think life isnt a bed of roses, complains and whines, but yet at the same time, do not want people to take pity on them. But then, think about it. If you think you are in a bad situation, there are many others out there worst than you. If you think your life is pathetic, it's not the same as others, then it will be pathetic. You can jolly well change it. I know it is easier said than done, but then, at least try to improve? I dont mean to be mean, but there are some who brought it upon themselves.

They shouldnt be living the way the way they are, but they chose this path despite knowing how it will turn out, so who should they blame?

Qualifications is such an important thing in Singapore, i have seen how 10 years of experience is equivalent to a fresh grad's zero years of experience in that same field. No qualification is almost nothing. Most people my age are studying, but if you choose not to continue to pursue ur studies, and flare up when people concerned advise you for your own good, who's there to put the blame on?

Reading the book made me realise how often we take things for granted, how we whine and blame others, not realising that you have yet to fully understand the situation before coming to a conclusion or the way you want to perceive that situation or person. And more often than not, when you want to do smth for that person, it's too late.

To the important people in my life;
My family, Mr G, Brother, Honey dearest, RS babes, Ah girl, Fish Tank-ers;
Thank you for everything.

I may have drifted apart from some of you at one point or another, but you people are the ones i wont want to leave out at different stages of my life. And i love you all :)

brianna
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